 I miss her like no one can imagine 2005-01-08 - 4:16 p.m. So I'm paranoid, I know that. We've talked it to death. Now it's not about paranoia, it's about not being ready to vacate the "honeymoon phase". I miss my girlfriend, I hate not seeing her, and it really fuckin sucks when I had a chance and poor communication sucks it up into the oblivion. It makes my stomach hurt, I need to hold her, and be held and know that we're good. So I know she hasn't changed her mind, she's just busy. Fuck, life needs to sit still for a minute so I can give my girl a hug and a kiss and tell her I love having her in my life. Our lives are full of things other than each other, and I'm not suggesting we put all of those things on hold for each other, I just need to take a step back to us being together once in a while. This probably doesn't make so much sense right now...but the point is that I miss her. I miss being able to have her whenever I wanted. I spent two weeks away from her and I wasn't prepared to go for a third. I liked my independence, but you know, I've done that for so long, I am more than ready to be there for someone else. :( I need her. I need to get a driver's license and a cheap clunker piece of junk car, so I can drive out there and be with her. That's my other goal, 2nd to finishing school. I gotta go. Pash |