 me, needy? 2005-01-18 - 3:15 p.m. So I'm needy. According to my girlfriend. I'm inclined to refer to her as a cold-hearted bitch for that comment. I don't think I'm being needy, I think I care about our relationship, and obviously if seeing me isn't something she cares about, well that goes a long way to say how she feels about our relationship. I didn't go the distance and tell her she was a cold hearted bitch...cuz that isn't really in my nature. Seriously, seeing her for more than an hour a week shouldn't be considered being needy. The fact that I have to make an appointment is also not terribly pleasant. We haven't been together that long...how is it that she doesn't want to see me more often than she does? Christ all I did was go home for Chrismtas and everything feels totally different, and I hate it. I wanted to shower (so I'd be clean) and take a bath (so I'd feel better) and apparently I used to much hot water in my 5 minute shower, because I didn't have enough to have a decent bath. So I'm still horribly cranky and upset, and I don't even know what to do. If she can't make me at least a little bit of a priority, do I need to be in that relationship? As much as it kills me, I don't know if we are on the even remotely the same path. I wonder if maybe I am being needy, and therefore I am not exactly in the path of long term relationships. I really, really don't think I'm being needy, I think it's generally normal, to want to spend time with your significant other. Ugh. this sucks. I don't know what to say but I'm hurt. I'm hurt and I'm scared and I don't want to lose her, because she thinks I'm suffocating (especially since I don't see it that way at all). I fucking hate this. I have too much other crap to deal with, school wise to let this get to me. On that note...I'm gonna go. ciao, pash |