 we're done but i can't let go, not yet 2005-02-08 - 3:32 p.m. So once again it's been sometime since I last wrote. I guess right off the bat, my girl and I broke up. I think we broke up for good reasons, and it was inevitable. What worked out really oddly and totally poor was that we didn't start fighting until a couple days later. We both said things that were really hurtful. Some we meant, I know and some of those were true. I also know we said and did things that weren't necessary. It kills me to think that I want her in my life. I would put aside the rotten way she made me feel all those weeks, just to have her back as my friend. Just to have those good momments back. Apparently I'm totally incapable of letting go. I hate that we aren't speaking- I would give up so much more than I feel like I already have, to speak to her again, to start over. I don't think we're going to get back together, and I don't want that. I just want her friendship back. Maybe that is foolish...but welcome to my life, full of emotion and only starting to show signs of logical behaviour. I don't know how true that is really, but I'm willing to let it slide for now. Ciao Pash |